Ah, the never ending topic on my blog. You´d think I was sick of it by now......and don´t worry, I AM! But this quote always rings true in my head. And besides, LIFE IS MEANT TO BE ENJOYED WITH SOMEONE ELSE. There, I said it...and I really do believe it. I talked to a few of my guy friends this weekend and they gave some funny advice. Thanks to Brett, an old boyfriend´s little brother, I had a good laugh at myself and was just reminded to roll with the punches!
But, wouldn´t you know it, God has a sense of humor and even as I was slamming doors mad on Saturday, I prayed to meet new people and to have new experiences somehow. I was just mad about the situation with Andrew and well, you know. Anyways, I was actually scanning the chapel after sacrament meeting to see if I could find him.......but when there are 800 people in your ward, its pretty much gonna be 6 months before I see him again, especially since I think he is hiding from me. Anyway, I noticed this guy kinda hanging around watching me. At first I just thought he was just there, but the more time went on, the more I noticed that he was watching me and waiting for his move to pounce. Ha. Finally, I made it to where he was and he used the line "Hey, have we met before?" To which I responded, "Nope! I have never seen you before." A fun time of wit, banter, and humor ensued for about 50 minutes after this. I discovered that we have 50 mutual facebook friends, that he is tall and attractive, that he is a marriage and family counselor, that he just moved here from DC 4 weeks ago, that he is funny and competitive, and that I would love to go on a date with him. I also learned that he just ended a 14 month long relationship by moving here and he is just getting over that. Awesome. You want to know what I really learned about myself?!?!?!?!?! THAT I´M STILL FALLING FOR THE FUNNY EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE GUY. grrrrrr. I don´t even know what to say to myself. STOP IT!! but i don´t know how or why i like these guys. why?? there has to be a reason. why are all the guys in this world that i like emotionally unavailable?!?!
And, you know you are in trouble when the parents of your patients at work in the children´s hospital are conspiring with the attending doctors to find boys to line you up with on dates and double dates....or when you go to lunch and the capstone student of another nurse is trying to set up her awesome 37-year-old cello-playing friend with the singles girls......or when you get a call from PACU and the nurse on the other end of the line first asks about your dating life and tells you about the person he wants to set you up with AND THEN he gives you report on the patient you will be getting in 10 minutes. Or, when both of your roommates are dating boys and one of them has now taken it upon himself to tell me what i am doing wrong in my relationships and how to improve. WOW! Now i really am starting to sound desperate.
here are excepts of my dating converstations - love them and leave them and just enjoy your life compared to all this awesomeness - - - - yes, please bask in your marriedness and the retardedness of single people these days. or, if you are single, you can commiserate with me!!!
********This is the guy I met on Sunday! I actually really enjoyed talking to him and would love to go out with him and get to know him......I just don´t know if I should run away or embrace his emotional unavaibleness......decisions, decisions.********
Heidi!...I mean, Coolest Girl I've Ever Met at Church! I enjoyed meeting you too! I was exhausted after the 6 hours of church, but was glad I went to them.
I think it'd be great to get to know you! In the interest of full-disclosure, I should tell you that I'm just getting out of a long, roller coaster of a relationship and am pretty emotionally depleted from it...so I'm probably not looking to jump into another relationship at the moment...but I'd love to get to know you better and hang out!
I'm headed to San Diego this coming weekend for Memorial Day, but will definitely give you a call when I get back into town.
Have a great week!
********This guy I have since stopped talking/writing to.......I mean, he was cute and a doctor but he just has too many girls, he doesn´t even know what to do with himself.************